Angel in Disguise

Have you ever met a human angel? I mean an honest to goodness human angel. I have and her name is Suzanne. Our paths crossed a few months back when I took an online course. We hit it off and stayed in touch as she moves around a lot. Like my younger sister, she is…

A Sign?

I stepped out today to purchase to few items in the mall. No more than 30 minutes. Heading to the parking counter I realized I didn’t have my parking ticket. I must have forgotten it in the car. Checked vehicle twice. No sign of the parking card. Headed back to the pay counter. Processed my…

A Hand to Hold

It’s be a month since I last visited my 95 year old father with dementia. With the ongoing pandemic, sudden lockdowns make it challenging to visit him. I was finally able to spend time with him today. Seemed just like yesterday. “Give me your hand”, he blurts out while listening to his music. A hand…

The WILL to LIVE

The soul knows no bounds. The physical body may be weak and the mind may be lost to dementia. But it’s one’s soul that truly knows. I believe that the will of my 95 year old father to live comes from each and every individual that watches over him, cares for him and ensures his…

The LEGENDS

Thank you, Tom Jones, Matt Monroe and Engelbert Humperdinck! My 95 year old father lives in your music!  He dives deep into his own world, eyes closed, sways and sings along. He shouts out in delight, “wonderful music!” Dialysis 3 times a week, old age and dementia. Only a very select few are able to…

AM I GOING TO DIE?

My father asks me, feeling anxious. I answer, “no dad.  You’re ok.  You’re home now.” After eight years in dialysis, 3 times a week, I finally figured it out. The early years were easy. Dad had a lot of reserve energy after treatment. Today, at age 95 and on his 8th year, he struggles with…

Tan-Ta-Ta-Tan-Tan-Tan-Tan!

Reminiscing Saturday afternoons growing up with dad warms my heart. It was a weekly routine with my older sister. First stop was the hospital. He’d drop us off at his clinic before heading off to visit his patients. “Do not open the door if anyone knocks.” He had a signature knock and that was the…

A Very Special COMB

My father loves to comb his hair. As far back as I can remember he always carried a comb. He had an old one, quite small for his hand to grasp at his old age. When he needed a replacement, I wanted his new comb to be special. Normally I would run to the pharmacy…

Where there is HOPE

There is LIFE. There is FAITH. My father at age 95 believed he could do it. He thought he had it all figured out. After 8 years in dialysis, hardly eating and struggling decided to call it quits. His instructions were clear. Stop dialysis. He was clear about what would happen thereafter. Death. “I am…

NEVER-ENDING CIRCLES

We all need to have circles in life. It’s what keeps us going. For me that is. Circle of family, circle of friends. Circle of service, circle of support. There is no limit when it comes to having circles. They vary for each and every one of us. They can change as time goes by.…

REPLAY / RECONFIRM / VALIDATE

Since the pandemic began a year ago, I have gotten accustomed to staying home. Most of the day, that is. When I have restless moments, I find reason to take a short walk outside. Truth is, I like staying home. This is truly who I am. The girl in me has long been tamed down.…

Reminders to SELF when a Loved One is Sick

1.  PRAYER works. 2.  Avoid taking the situation personally.  It’s not about YOU.  Rather, it’s the journey of the individual who is sick. 3.  Everyday counts, everyday matters.  Help your loved one beyond duty and above all, for the love of God. 4.  Bond with siblings and family.  Suggest taking turns.  Talk to one another…